With everything that has been going on, and the topic I blogged about most recently, I have been thinking a lot about my life and the things I want to do, the person I want to be, the life I want to have.

I feel a bit like I am in a stuck mode right now. I know that my health is probably a large aspect of that stuck feeling. I am working very hard (though I have worked harder when I worked more than 1 job at one time), and often I find myself spent at the end of the day. I usually feel so spent that I don't want to do fun things after work, and I don't have the energy to do the things I need to do in my home. I think that I need to work on the health aspect so I can feel better and have the energy to do the things I need to do.

I have been making time to do a bit more of my hobbies, and that is going surprisingly well, and it makes me realize that more of my life can be that way if I really get my energy in the right direction.

My bf made some comments lately about our future. It was odd in a lot of ways because I thought he wasn't into that kind of thing, but he made a comment and it again, suggested a long term relationship. The whole situation has me feeling a bit odd because it has been hard for us lately and really hard with his family, so part of our time together has been through difficulties. I am not sure how things will be when things are better for him and his family and us. I do think that our recent discussion about money upset him, but he did give me the money we discussed, and part of me thinks that when he calms down, he understands what I am saying and feeling. I think that part of it is that our relationship may be a lot better without all of the added stressors that have been going on.

I have been focusing more on me and putting more effort into some physical aspects, and I think it is coming along well. Much better than before.

Giving you all a big hello and hope that your weekend is going well.