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November 24th, 2009 at 09:20 pm

Today I felt really awkward. I went with a friend grocery shopping, and as she said how much she had to spend, I just felt so upset at myself. Her budget for Thanksgiving was ALOT---almost my entire monthly food budget. I asked for help with buying a few food items---less than $10---I wasn't sure if she would say yes or no, but I figured I would ask. She explained how she had more items to buy, and couldn't help me out but would help me out next month. I appreciated her help, and I felt weird because I don't think she knows how I am counting out money for even the most basic necessities. I felt like crying----I am upset at myself for letting myself get in this situation. Thankfully, in less than 3 years I should have my debt paid off and will be much more budget minded.

I wanted so man things in the store---even just the simplest of food items. It was weird realizing that I can't get myself even a healthy treat because of bad spending habits. I am not very happy with myself right now.

3 Responses to “Awkward”

  1. miz pat Says:

    Dear, you are going through a bad stretch, but you are also doing good stuff. Don't beat yourself up and don't forget to eat.

  2. merch Says:

    I think you just need to take a pause an look at the long term. You're going through a tough time now, but in a year, what will your life be like?

    In other words keep doing smart things and at some point, things will start to break free. This to shall pass.

  3. Jerry Says:

    Hang in there. The awkward stage won't last forever, and things will improve as you lead yourself out of the hole... see that light up there? It isn't that far away, really. The more progress you make, the more insurance you will have that you are achieving your goals. Soon you will be inspiring people with your story, and not feeling down about it, because you conquered the debt beast! Don't give up...

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