I am feeling really weird right now. On one hand, I am super stressed out about money and life and whatnot. I am trying to work harder and faster, I am trying to help someone I love who is dealing with their loved one who is dying, and I am trying to deal with my own issues of feeling financially insecure.
And on another hand, I feel this weird comfort at times. I have been dirt poor before and eating in soup kitchens, so part of me feels like being broke is not uncommon.
It is hard to explain this feeling. On one hand there is the fear of being homeless and I cannot explain how today, I felt on the verge of tears. Just overwhelmed. I need to fix things, and I don't have the money to do that, and I am in a situation where I am counting out every little bit and am slowly (or not so slowly) seeing my savings dwindling.
I know that I am far better off than other people. I have a job and I have a roof over my head and I have food. So I am doing ok. 
I have applied for some part-time jobs, and I hope that it goes well.
Oddly Comforted during Hardship
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I think the key to surviving any obstacle is being aware of the blessings (if you chose to call them that) that one does have. DH and I are most grateful for healthy and happy children. To deal with a health issue would be far worse than dealing with a money issue. You are a strong person, and you have an outlook that will serve you, rather than will bring you down.
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