So, after yesterday's little mini crisis, I was able to talk to my family and friends and borrow the money.
I know $26 bucks isn't a lot, but when I am maxed out on cards and refuse to use the ones that will jump my interest rate to nearly 30%, and have a small savings I have a fear of using, then, well, it just seemed like a bit too much. This is taking into account that I had stupidly forgotten to check my checking account and kept going on the wrong balance info. Sigh. Then, when my bf said he couldn't help, that upped my heart rate a bit. We were able to have a good talk, and some anxiety I had had about our vacation dissipated. It will be put on hold for now. I am disappointed, but things are too hard right now, ya know?
I also have a problem with asking for help. I know that sounds silly, but I do. I don't like asking for help because I fear that people will let me down, and it will cause a rift between us, so I try not to ask whenever possible.
Things seem better today and with my family's help I will be able to buy food for Thanksgiving. A modest dinner, but one full of love, and I think that is all that matters, ya know?
Simple Pleasures Part II
November 18th, 2009 at 05:00 pm
November 18th, 2009 at 06:16 pm 1258568195
You're exactly right about Thanksgiving - as long as it's made with love & shared with those you love, you can't ask for a better meal!
November 19th, 2009 at 01:01 am 1258592505
I know that you are disappointed about not being able to go away. Any plans about a stay-cation, treating where you live as a tourist destination? Sometimes its enough of an away if you're not at work.