This weekend has been a slightly odd one.
I got to spend Thanksgiving with family and friends and I generally had a good time. Part of my family has a bit of opulence, and, it brought back some memories of when I was a kid and my family was poor and we needed help. I feel a bit odd because my family really could have used some help, but the side that is more oppulent chose not to. No one ever has to help, but I feel bad when I think of certain experiences and things endured, that could have been better with their help.
My bf is also having more money problems with his family, so, our vacation is going to be very, very short. I still have no idea of where we are going to go, or what we are going to do, or how we are going to pay for it. And my bday is coming up as well, and the idea of what I want to do for my bday is less than $40 bucks total, but I am not even sure how if I will be able to do that. My relative may give me money for my bday, but I am thinking that I want to use that for something I need, rather than something I want. Sigh.
I also want to set aside money for the New Year. I don't want to be broke (like I am today---so broke I chose to buy food over buying gas) during the New Year, and I want to at least have a little bit of money to buy something nice to eat.
So, as I am going over my budget, I realize that while I thought this month was going to be a bit better, I will need to be even more strict about my budget and I may not be able to do the food options I had first thought of. Or maybe, I can be even more inventive with my cooking, and stick to even more beans?
Feelings
December 1st, 2009 at 05:24 am
December 1st, 2009 at 03:11 pm 1259680310
Leave the past in the past. It can dredge up memories that aren't pleasant.
I'd forget the vacation if you can't afford it. Stay local and go to a museum and have a nice time. It can still be a lovely time.
And money that you receive put towards your needs. Forget the wants. At this point you need to get your budget in place and free yourself from the continual stress you are under about meeting your bills.
Keep watching the sales ads for groceries for the month of December. You may be able to stockpile items for New Years by spending only a small amount at a time.
Keep your chin up. I think that you will weather the storm, and 2010 will be better for you!