So, this week has been a slightly okay and slightly weird one. My budget issues had a wrench situation because of the whole credit card annual fee.
I find myself having cravings for my favorite food, my favorite items, and my favorite experiences. They feel a lot like a quiet yearning, a form of escapism in some ways, ya know?
I also find myself thinking about the future I want, and hoping that I am able to live the life that I really want. I want to be married, and own my own home, and have children and the minivan and all of that. Right now, because times are tough, I am really worried about being able to achieve those wants. Sometimes, I find that I get sad when I see some who may not have worked as hard, or who didn't have this huge desire for a normal life, just have it and don't think twice about it, ya know?
I am looking forward to the New Year and hoping that it will be better than this year. I am optimistic because my budget will not be as tight as it is now, and I will have another large bill paid off in 2010. Woo hoo!! 
Cravings and Wants
December 17th, 2009 at 05:16 pm
December 17th, 2009 at 06:16 pm 1261073786
Right now, I'm in debt up way past my ears, but I'm balancing my payments and plans to have both emergency funding and other financial planning tools.
And I am having a pretty sweet Christmas. Church concerts, light displays, my own old tree taken out each year, are all pleasant ways to spend the holidays.
Knowing people like you makes me thankful.
We survive, we build, we grow. And because of our backgrounds, we can cherish and appreciate life in ways that others cannot.
Happy holidays, love.
December 17th, 2009 at 09:42 pm 1261086142
I try to find new traditions that fit my current situation. Christmas movie night with friends and loved ones. No need for gifts, but still enjoy a festive and fun time.